SOMETIMES I WISH I COULD CLONE MYSELF SO I COULD ACCOMPLISH ALL I SET OUT TO DO, AND WE'D SHARE A HIVEMIND AND COLLECTIVELY BECOME BETTER PEOPLE

20 NOVEMBER 2024, 4:32 PM

I promise haven't forgotten about this site!!!!! It's being slowly worked on in the background, and I come on nearly every day to see what everyone else is up to!! But too much time has passed [noticeably] on my calendar and I've hated how I fucked up the code so that the blurbs within my calendar get cut off, so I just said 'enough's enough'. And I fixed that! as well as some broken links/images Shit got fucked up somehow along the way yet again, and I had to scrap what I "corrected" LOLE. I'll fix it this week but god damn I was so excited to release this site as I wanted RIGHT NOW -__- , added a quiz results page inspired by many people on here! And I've also added a Neopets section. Currently just houses my two accounts, but I want to add some content in the near future.. Playing Neoclassic has been so much fun and has made me want to make premades primarily for there. Fingers crossed I find the drive to stick with everything I hope to do!

The music diary link is finally being worked on, and it's nothing spectacular but I'm nearing my own patience limit with not having itn up-and-running yet. But "I'm a perfectionist" and I just hate what I've made with it so far and can't bring myself to post it just because. Decisions, decisions...

Anyway x?, I really want to make a Christmas special layout so keep an eye out for that within the next couple weeks :3 I also will be adding more tweaks to my main site but I've put off on even this minor update far too long so ENOUGH'S ENOUGH AGAIN!!!

Oh, and have a happy Thanksgiving if you celebrate! I cannot wait to dig into some sweet potato pie... xP

Oh shit, it's autumn already!

22 SEPTEMBER 2024, 9:49 AM

Summer came and went, and I didn't do a damn thing I planned to. I'll tell myself "I'll do these things next summer for SURE", only to repeat the same cycle. It sucks not having [female, irl] friends, but I also need to learn to be comfortable with that reality and go out and do things by myself. I'm the only one holding myself back! We all have the power to change ourselves, it just can be so daughting can't it? D: It's a new season though, so it's time to make changes!!

Some updates about my apartment: still no desk! Still using the windowsill! And by GOD does it fucking suck! I have half a mind to cave and buy a cheap folding table, but I don't want to put my money into something that is temporary when I can suffer and save it for that ~dream desk~, whenever she appears before me! But it's made my desire to want to play games or do creative things online (even edit my Neocities) more annoying than usual. Maybe that's what I tell myself to cope, because it's not like I'm doing much offline either.

The most I've done is force myself to start reading. I was going to say "get back into reading" but that implies I was a reader recently, and the last time I actively read was age 15 (now 29). Sad!!!!!!!!!!!! My boyfriend recommended Between Two Fires by Christopher Buehlman which I finished a couple days ago, and I can't stop thinking about it! I love historical fiction, and throw in a medieval setting with horror themes and you can count me right in! If anyone has recommendations, feel free to use the chatbox to let me know! I think I'm going to set up an email for my site in the coming months, as well as do a little revamp. I'll save that for my desked times, though. Anyway, the world in BTF was reminding me so much of a tabletop game Kingdom Death: Monster.

Time to make more tea because I have the flu and I'm out! If you're in the northern hemisphere, I hope you enjoy this beautiful first autumn day! : -D

I Have Innumerable Mosquito Bites And I Must Scream

05 SEPTEMBER 2024, 4:17 PM

Things you forget after living not in a first floor apartment for the past four years: when it's summertime, mosquitoes are still out. And when you live in a home that is multiple hundred years old with unseen hoels, windows surrounded by trees and other foliage.. bugs come through! And not only that, when you enjoy drinking & smoking for pleasure, which requires sitting outside at points, if you're not wearing long pants and sleeves you WILL be eaten alive; at least 15 bites on each of my legs alone. My ankles are having it the worst. -_- And they're soooo fucking small too!!! I try and clap them dead whenever I see them, but alas it's more difficult during the night hours...

Besides the 'squitoes, my new apartment is amazing. I feel so excited to pull into the driveway and come into my new home. Still lots to unpack and I need to properly decorate but we're getting there slowly! I'm in desperate need of a corner shelf and desk for my computer. This is what I'm temporarily working with:



Looks ok in theory, but besides being right up against the windows for all the world to see, it is EXTREMELY uncomfortable and just not doable long term. Fingers crossed I find a desk this weekend!!
As I've written this, I've acquired 2 new mosquito bites... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

Good things are coming! .. ?

13 AUGUST 2024, 4:30 PM

Hello everyone! This issss Running on Empty, foood Review. ! Lol sorry I can't write "hello everyone" without hearing that intro in my head.. >,> Forgive me. It's been a little while since I've updated this mini-journal/more in-depth updates section I have. Actually, while adding this, I was thinking about how I'm going to get rid of the lower righthand display of updates. Pretty redundant and I explain most of what I write there, in here anyway. Like, for example, I'm *trying* to be more active in posting to my journal, and absolutely need to get my music log/diary/whatever done!!!!! I've been listening to a lot of music and would like an outlet to write about it. Soon!!!!!

For now, my mirror deviantART is sorta functional! I'll get the Gallery tab and comments sorted eventually (the former before the latter).

In my personal life, I'll be officially moved out in less than two weeks!!! Still in the process of packing and figuring out movers if I'm honest, and will probably be updating sorta slower because of it. But nonetheless, I'm excited to start this new chaper of my life and will be putting all of myself into the words I say and thoughts I have. Can't say the past four years have been anything close to great, but this apartment was my first and it will be preserved in nostalgia just as everything else is to me. This song is feeling like a good sendoff.

I'll never forget my time here. So long, Grasshopper.

Have I won the lottery yet?

24 JULY 2024, 6:00 PM

Boy howdy, has this month been fucking insane. For once I can say that I'm looking forward to the end of the summer months, and am eagerly awaiting September. But I digress...

I've added more avatars [and pages], as well as started the icons directory. ALSO made a new journal entry that goes indepth as to why this month has been absolutely bonkers! and general life updates, if you feel inclined to read.

Unrelated to updates/Neocities, but I cannot express how obsessed and excited I am by the nina.chat project. I've made some postings about it, but the project aims [pun half-intended] to rebuild AIM, amongst other platforms. You sign up through Escargot, pay $5, let them know to which username the donation is going to, and bam! You now have AIM access damn near the real thing. Here's an example of how it looks:


Icons work on both yourself & your buddy [I've noticed that gifs will stop loading sometimes--for your own icon, just click on it and press "ok" and it'll reload. Could be a personal gripe but figured I'd mention it]. Also, the latest update [5.9.etc] is the one to download!!

Good thing I've just started adding 50x50 icons!

Some updates, some ramblings...

30 JUNE 2024, 07:44 PM

Woo hoooo, FINALLY adjusted [i.e. fixed entirely] my audioplayer :-D This is exactly how I've wanted it, and is now solidfying the larp in my heart of running a personal site like this as if it was still the early 2000s lole... My childhood nostalgia feels especially strong today being that my birthday is tomorrow [July 1st] and it's the last year of my 20s. My 30s don't scare me, don't get my wrong, but god DAMN was ever older person right about the years passing you by x.X I've also opened up my journal link! Baby steps...

Anyway, past Wednesday I wont be able to really update the site until next week, as my boyfriend is visiting for said birthday and we'll be traveling around my area! Last time he was here I didn't take nearly enough pictures on my cameras--I will NOT make that same mistake. I've seen multiple sites with photologs and that has me thinking maybe I should add something like that as well.. but first I need to complete other goals I have for myself *coughcough*literallyalloftheshitgreyedouttotheright*coughcough* But it's making the mental checklist nonetheless :3

Anyway x2, I hope everyone has a great week and I hope most of you either have off or don't have to work period!

My first posting!

26 JUNE 2024, 10:11 PM

I can't begin to describe what a nightmare doozy putting together this new Neocities has been... I'm still very much a novice at coding, coupled with being perfectionist. So of course I remade the layout multiple times, obsessed over every detail, and I'm still unsatisfied... Ah, well. It was time to get this site out into the ether! : -D

As mentioned in the above blurb, this site will be in a "work in progress" state for quite some time... Please hold tight while I get this site up-and-running how I'd like! c:

"What are you planning for this site" you may be asking yourself. And I have an answer! Beyond what's mentioned in the above blurb, I'd like to honor my heros of olde and provide free anime graphics to anyone who may want to use them! Again, it'll take some time to get material under my belt, but that's my longterm goal.

To any straggler who happens upon my domain, welcome! And thank you so much for checking this site out. I'm looking forward to cultivating my dream online space and sharing it with the world! Have a happy summer! <3